Sometimes i wonder. If there is something seriously wrong with me. Why do i always attract the wrong type of guys? Is it because of the way i behave? The way i speak and carry myself? I have no idea. But this is not the 1st time. Its probably the 3rd or 4th time.
I know i have changed. My thinking and the way i look at things have changed. I tend to be more liberal and open minded. I am also more straight forward and frank. I speak what comes to my mind and also would be glad that people treat me the same way. But of course, i can't force others. Everyone is each individul and does not report to anyone. And, i try my best not say nasty words to hurt people's feelings though i am frank and straight forward. What i meant is, i do not want to fake it. If i am happy, i would say it with thanks and appreciate those who bring happiness to me. If i am upset, i would also voice out.
Its all because, i believe life is too short. I should enjoy life, do my best to live life to the fullest and make myself happy. And of course, not at the expense of bringing unhappiness to other people's life. At least, i try not to hurt anyone.......
Fen said that she felt i was trying too hard and too rush into wanting to move on with my life. I felt that too. Thanks fen for highlighting this to me. I should sit down one day and think carefully what i really wan in my life and what i wana do in future. Maybe i should just slow down my pace, stop and look back?
